Friends no more.

I spoke to someone that i havent spoken to in in about 3 months. If someone clearly states that they dont want to talk to you . They ont have the right to try and hop in and out of yur life when they decide they want to be your friend . I refuse to argue or even try to explain to them that I have permanently closed the chapter on them. I think they lost that privilege after treating me like crap for a while.

Today made me realize that i no longer consider him a friend at all. I have no negative feelings towards him but I also have no positive ones. In short I really dont care at all its like I wouldnt cafe if anything happened to him, whether good or bad.

North Londoners Dont Speak English and work is hard

"DEEP!!" I swear North Londoners speak a different language. They definitely dont speak "BBC English". The kids say "deep" "blood" or "bruv" in every sentence. I was up north on the piccadilly line and I swore the kids on the train next to me were speaking dutch but no ..it was the North London version of English. Then again i really shouldnt say much given that I have never stepped foot on US soil yet everyone i meet always mistakes me for being American. I blame the way I speak on watching way too many Tv shows during my formative years. I wonder if its the same for the North Londoners

Anyway my patience is really being tested by this event. Its really hard work but I think I have done a good job just that something happened that is beyond my control Ill explain later right now i need to go and bathe ,got a really busy day ahead.

Q & A with Che

hi everyone that reads this blog. I thought I'd have a Q&A session. Heres how it works . I want everyone that reads this blog to ask me at least one question. You can post anonymously if you wish. Once i get ten questions Ill answe all of the questions Honestly. Should be interesting!!!!!!

If Life were an RPG

WARNING CHE IS HAVING A DEEP MOMENT WHERE HE RANTS AND RAVES LIKE IF HES CRAZY....MAYBE HE IS



Sometimes i wonder why I'm here? what is my purpose? what am I supposed to do next? Loads of Questions and vague answers. What am I good at in life? I havent a clue. I am not athletic, talented etc. To be honest I dont have a clue what I am good at. I used to think I was intelligent. When I was 7 I did math with year 6's and when I was 11 i came 2nd in the common entrance among boys. However as i got older it was like if everyone else caught up with me academically and to be honest I just lost the drive to even try.



Anyone who knows me knows im obsessed with RPG's particularly * que drum roll* FINAL FANTASY. I think I like being able to solve puzzles. In video games theres always a solution to every problem, Always a hero to come and save the world from whatever force is threatening it. The most Important thing about RPg's is that everything always ends with a Happy ending.

Reality can really be so difficult sometimes. The uncertainty it brings can be so exciting but at the same time it can be so hard. Right now i dont have a clue what im supposed to do next and that scares me .

Anyway im done ranting. I wish I was Cloud Strife.

Cuz then I'd have a big ass sword.

Great Taste in Music- Im a regular Clive Davis

tell me if you like my songs for the show. ( i have gotten lots of evening wear and cocktail dresses)









Yes, I know I have excellent taste in Music.

Hot Party Bangers

Hi Peoples that read my blog
( I hope there are people that read my blog)

Im a compiling a list of songs for the fashion show. Tell me songs that are current and have a good beat. Here a are a few I like .

Suggest some more Please.


Fall out boy-thnks for th mmrs (lindbergh Palace Remix)
Gimme More -Britney Spears
Booty Luv- some Kinda Rush
Lupe Fiasco - Superstar
Kanye West- Flashing Lights
Madonna- 4 minutes to save the world
Rihanna- Dont stop the Music


Tell me about 4 more songs. Im gonna try and get a mix done

Black to Black Miss USA's

Miss Texas won Miss USA. Historically, its the first time a black woman crowned another Black woman as Miss USA. Athough if you wanna get all technical, Rachel Smith is biracial. But i think its monumental. I picked 11 of the top 15 (yes im, like psychic) Now if only i could predict lottery numbers with same degree of accuracy


my predictions were
Miss USA 2008 - Tennessee
1st RU - Masssachussets
2nd RU - Delaware
3rd RU - indiana
4th RU - texas

Top 10
6. Oklahoma
7. Nevada
8. Florida
9. Minnesota
10. california

Top 15
11. pennsylvania
12. south carolina
13. georgia
14.virginia
15. utah

The actual results were

1 Texas
2 Mississippi
3 New Jersey
4 Oklahoma
5 Pennsylvania

positions 5-10
Florida
Indiana,
Massachusetts,
Missouri
Tennessee

Positions 11-15
South Carolina
Minnesota
utah
california
Rhode Island

7 pounds in 10 days

I have lost 7 pounds since April 1st. ( queue Drum Roll) Im like a yoyo dieter

In other news I was feeling a bit down from planning this event. Its going well but its hard work. Went shopping tonight so that i could have some snazzy clothes to wear when i went to meet the WOman in charge of the Venue. Definitely cant go in there wearing a sportswear jacket by Londsdale LOL. theyd think i was a Hoodie/ Yardie/Chav in other words not somone that should be planning an event. I ended up buying more than i Planned for.

I also bought anew pair of beige/Khaki coloured pants. The other ones that i bought in November were fitting like GLUE!!! Not very becoming LOL (so now when i post pictures of me wearing them Silentk1 cant give kme grief about them) They were also shooting at the bottoms and i dont think I have grown. Or maybe i Just never noticed they were shooting.

I bought 30 waist Regular length pants. WHich is kinda wierd cuz ive never considered myself a "regular" height .Ive always thought of myself as really short. Im 5 foot 10 and I swear Im shorter than most of my male friends. I swear the average guy here is about 6 foot or maybe its just that theres a huge Eastern European Community and they all tend to be really tall.

ANyway enough of my random rambling. Hopefull I wont look like the poster child for manorexia by the next time i post on this blog.


I leave you with the Perfect Music video for everyones inner Anorexic.

This video is disturbing. but I love Daft Punk they are fantastic DJ's

Fashion Show

Im gonna be helping organize a fashion show for charity. Is that cool or is that COOL! Im a bit excited. It has to come off before the end of this month. So i have a lot of stuff to do. I have to find a venue in Croydon, find designers who would be willing to lend their support given such a short time period, then id, have to find models and get a photographer to do photos of the event. I am thinking of approaching a local nightclub and maybe targeting some urban fashion designers.

The hard part is this, I have to negotiate all of these things for free. If anyone wants to help me or offer advice feel free to respond to this blog.

I leave you with this song. I hated it first time i heard it. Its amazing. Cheryl looks Hottttt!!

China no more

I was uspposed to go to China to see Miss Tourism Queen International but as you probably figured im still here. Apparently, I havent missed much. The pageant seems not to be going that well. Miss America has even pulled out of the competition. You can read about her "ordeal" on her blog http://www.amylynneholbrook.com/wordpress/

Im actually surprised that this didnt make international news headlines.

Anyway enough of that.

I hate food

I have really slacked off of my fitness goals. I am still going to the gym but I'm not eating. I really do hate eating. To gain weight you have to eat so much food. I must reach 11 stones by the end of the month. I am so serious. I am going to eat like a pig.im even calorie counting so that i make sure i have 3000 calories a day

Plastic Surgery

the day finally came. Im getting my nose job today. Ive never really like my nose. Im a bit scared about getting the surgery done but I hate my nose but i know changing it will make me feel happier. wish me well.